WARNING: This is a veeeerrrrryyyyyy long post.
I wonder which bastard invented exams. Since yesterday my family kept talking bout my results, i got 20th place in my class< wif 35 ppl in it. I know it's not a good result & i'm not happy with it either. My very lovely mother, kept saying things like "U think u very gud? U're very satisfied?" She NEVER thought about how i felt. It's da same for UPSR, i got 5As & of course i hoped i could do better, i cried A LOT in school & i just decided to eat some ice cream to comfort myself. & then my mother came to pick me up & of course she isn't satisfied & my extra "smart" tuition teacher added "she even have the mood to eat ice cream." which makes my mum agree & made her angrier at me, for trying to be happy? Why does everyone want me to be gloomy & sad all day? Then they would be satisfied?
I never liked tuition......& my mum is reeeaaalllyyyy mad this time. She told me to be in da Top 10 for da next 2 exams or i'll have to go tuition. I know it doesn't sound that bad but trust me, it's bad. Instead of hating them, i'm literally scared of tuitions /.\ some...previous bad memories.& so, i argued with her just now.... & i never cried like this for such a long time....never shouted like this too< i can't shout...usually.. It turns out that da progress isn't important at all to her, da results is da most important after all. I studied my ass off this time & this is wad i get. I always asked them y do they have such high hopes on me. Just because i have gud results in std 1 & 2, i mean, anyone can do that! & also because my bro has bad results? I always envied him, his pressure is a lot lesser compared to me.
1 A in his report card & she'll die of happiness. My mum wasn't even satisfied with a B in my report card. Why don't they ever think of my feelings? I really want to just leave everything & run away...but of course i don't have da guts to do that....my friends are somehow da only ones that i could talk to....but telling them this won't help anyway, so i'll just spit it all out here. Is it fun to scold ppl like that? Is it fun to make ppl do things they don't like to do? Is it fun to just watch ppl cry? My life doesn't suck, i do. I suck at everything i do, & i admit it. I have no talent, i can't play any instrument, i don't draw well, don't have gud results, i'm not gud in sports, i have nothing. So thx a lot, for making me feel like crap.
It's good that i let go of all of my negative emotions here....& i'm quite ok now....my eyes are swollen ._. but yea, hope u guys have a better day than me.
Love,
Kylee
Saturday 30 June 2012
Thursday 28 June 2012
Pathetic
Can't stand ppl that "can't live" without love =o= bullshit. I mean u can like someone but don't make it seem like u'll die without it. Just freakin live peacefully without liking someone == saying that u nid a partner or wadever. Have some freakin dignity. == We're fourteen for peace sake! Even if u did had a partner or wadever crap, it wouldn't last long. & if u always think that "i wanna find a partner/ a target or wadever" Congratulations! u'll officially be one of da "flowery" ppl < either playboy/playgirl. Saying crap like "She's not da one for me/ It hurts too much" excuses. == If you're gonna lie, do it better, if u suck so much at lying, why waste ur time on this kind of stuff. == gooooshhh, grow up.
Love,
Kylee
Love,
Kylee
Tuesday 12 June 2012
One disappointment after another......it's ok, i won't have any hope for u anymore. :] Loneliness is not fun & u know dat, but u didn't care.We're still friends though~ I'll still be the Kylee dat i have always been, nothing will change.Only my hope for u is gone, it's not like u care though xP But i was grateful too, thx to u, one of our classmate came & talk to me, it was a really nice talk, somehow i found out more about someone i cared about, & myself. :] Anyway~ Hope u guys have an awesome day.
Monday 11 June 2012
Missing Korea :[
I wanna go Korea again! Not Winter time /.\ i wanna go thr during....Summer? @.@ or any other season except Winter. :] It's fuuuuuuuuuuuun~~ & i wish to continue Winter Sonata Episode 2 x] < It's a video filmed by my cousin when we're in Korea, even though i'm not in it <my cousins & my brother is in it though. It's very fun to watch :] Here, support support! >o< But if we go again when it's not Winter...i think da name would be changed? @.@ Wadever~ Just watch & support please! x]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dikyOtFkKJQ
Love,
Kylee
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dikyOtFkKJQ
Love,
Kylee
Sunday 10 June 2012
End of holiday :[
2 weeks of holidays ended :[ It's kinda short but kinda long as well.....Even though i'm still in holiday mood, i'll recollect my souls & get ready for da freakin results D: This worried mii for da past 2 weeks == It haunts mii T^T Praying real hard! >< Huhu~ Wish all of u have a-m-a-z-i-n-g results! :]
Love,
Kylee
Love,
Kylee
Friday 8 June 2012
Voooooooooooooooteee~~~
http://global.mnet.com/choice/vote.m?langCd=en&clk=
if that link doesn't work, just go to global.mnet.com & click into da Do [Dont's] Super 20's part & VOTE!
Vote for Big Bang at da "20's Trendy Music" section & G-Dragon at da "20's Style" section & MBLAQ at da "20's Performance" section << it's a deal between A+s <MBLAQ fan and VIPs =o= Anyway anyway, even though BB is currently no.1 but TTS is veeeeeeeeeeeery close!! So please vote! >< There's oni 0.9% difference in votes!!
Love,
Kylee
if that link doesn't work, just go to global.mnet.com & click into da Do [Dont's] Super 20's part & VOTE!
Vote for Big Bang at da "20's Trendy Music" section & G-Dragon at da "20's Style" section & MBLAQ at da "20's Performance" section << it's a deal between A+s <MBLAQ fan and VIPs =o= Anyway anyway, even though BB is currently no.1 but TTS is veeeeeeeeeeeery close!! So please vote! >< There's oni 0.9% difference in votes!!
Love,
Kylee
[Like that] version :3
This is another version of da previous post, i just added "like that" xD for fun.
I get mad quite easily like that. I'm kinda sensitive like that. What i don't like, is definitely what i don't like. Sooooo..... i might hate you like that, but probably not like that. Mostly will hate ur actions like that. Unless you pissed me off for a loooooong time like that. Speaking up really helps like that, instead of keeping it to myself like that, i would definitely prefer telling that person in his/her face about what he/she did wrong like that. & why can i do so? Cuz i'm cool like that. xP
Ps. This is fuuuuuuuuuuuuuun :3 & yes, i am a little retarded but i'm bored =o= so i'm just doing this to kill time. & it's kinda like rapping =o= & it kinda rhymes @.@
Love,
Kylee
I get mad quite easily like that. I'm kinda sensitive like that. What i don't like, is definitely what i don't like. Sooooo..... i might hate you like that, but probably not like that. Mostly will hate ur actions like that. Unless you pissed me off for a loooooong time like that. Speaking up really helps like that, instead of keeping it to myself like that, i would definitely prefer telling that person in his/her face about what he/she did wrong like that. & why can i do so? Cuz i'm cool like that. xP
Ps. This is fuuuuuuuuuuuuuun :3 & yes, i am a little retarded but i'm bored =o= so i'm just doing this to kill time. & it's kinda like rapping =o= & it kinda rhymes @.@
Love,
Kylee
Random
I get mad quite easily sometimes, i'm kinda sensitive....what i don't like, is definitely what i don't like. =o= Soooooo...... i might hate u, but probably not. Mostly will hate ur actions only. :] Unless u pissed me off for a loooooong time. Speaking out really helps, instead of keeping it to myself, i would definitely prefer telling that person in his/her face about what he/she did wrong. & why can i do so? Cuz i'm cool like that. xP
Ps. Being cool like that is not necessarily a good thing. Hope u guys have an awesome day.
Love,
Kylee
Ps. Being cool like that is not necessarily a good thing. Hope u guys have an awesome day.
Love,
Kylee
Tuesday 5 June 2012
Honestly, copycats & liars are da lowest type of human being i have ever met. == Why is it that i gave hints soooooo many times & u still didn't notice anything? =o= gosh i'm tired, i'll just type out all my anger here. !#%@&!#^&@!%$I!#&@^&%i@!&$#(*@($ Somehow, it helps. Anyway, wish u guys have a wonderful day.
Love,
Kylee
Love,
Kylee
Monday 4 June 2012
Dappy-No regrets~ ♥ [5th song in my blog]
If i should die before i wake,
The least that i could ever say,
I made mistakes but held on to my faith.
Cause when i look in the mirror,
I don't even recognize myself,
I got the heart of a winner,
But looking back at me is someone else.
No regrets, no regrets,
No point in crying over yesterday,eh.
No regrets, no regrets,
We ain't even seen the best of days.♥
The least that i could ever say,
I made mistakes but held on to my faith.
Cause when i look in the mirror,
I don't even recognize myself,
I got the heart of a winner,
But looking back at me is someone else.
No regrets, no regrets,
No point in crying over yesterday,eh.
No regrets, no regrets,
We ain't even seen the best of days.♥
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